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Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Looking for a Bible Study

I just finished my Esther Bible and I liked it a lot! I'm now looking for one about being a Godly wife. I want it to be rooted in scripture and that seems to be the problem there are lots of books out there but not a lot of studies. Help! I'm looking for a self study as well. My life is going to be pretty hectic for a while and I don't think I can commit to a night a week for the time being. Any Ideas out there?

Thursday, March 26, 2009


I've been learning about the Jewish holiday Purim in Bible study recently. Its actually pretty cool its the celebration of deliverance from the hands of enemy in Esther. They celebrated their deliverance with feasting, gifts and giving to the poor. (Esther 9:20-22)

This got me thinking do we actually take time to celebrate what God has done for us? We celebrate his birth, and his resurrection, but do we celebrate the freedom, joy, peace, love, grace and everything else that he gives us? Here are just a few of the things I'm thankful for:

The amazing love of Ryan, my family and my friends
The strength he gave me over the last few years.
The ability to travel, and the family and friends to stay with when I do.
Deliverance from a past of weakness, and attention seeking behaviors.
Confidence to try new things (trust me this is new within the last 6 years.)

That is just a few of the things that God has blessed me with or saved me from. How different would out attitude be if we focused on these things deliberately?

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Why do I do this to myself?

Why do I do things I know are going to frustrate me later???? I don't understand why I would purposefully give myself grief. Example of the moment. I just looked to see if our number 1 house was still on the market...why? I don't know, but guess what it was. We were told that we couldn't come look at it again (we were going to make and offer) because it went pending. So we made and offer on our number 2 and it was accepted. Number 2 is a great house and far superior to anything else we had seen but number 1 was still top. Really the only difference was the kitchen but it was a big difference.

God help me to focus on the good things, we have a great house with a lot of potential to make it 'ours' I'm so excited for that. Please help me focus on the good things instead of the coulda shoulda wouldas.


Friday, March 20, 2009


Emotions are good, they can show love, joy , surprise, happiness, all of those great things. But it can also be tough. Here is my current revelation. Last night I had a lot of emotions going on, frustration, anger, sadness, stress and worry. All of these emotions at the same time caused a problem. I get confused on who gets what sounds dumb but if you think about it I bet you do too. I give the worst emotion to the person that I'm the most comfortable with. Here is an example:

Through no fault of his own Ryan can't come down this weekend like we had planned. At the same time I was angry about some other things and apparently decided to take it out on him. Not only that but I called him back with the express purpose of doing so (not a pretty picture.) Not cool, I don't like it when people do that to me so why on earth would I do that to someone I Love????Anyway we talked and are fine but I want to know how to prevent this. I don't want to accept this as reality and say " we always take it out on those we love ." I've decided that's not acceptable. So...HELP!!! Any ideas???

How do I make sure that I'm not taking out my emotions on the people I love if its not their fault/problem/issue? Honestly I need to find a better way to communicate when it is there issues as well if you have any advice on that. Have any of you been successful at this? Its going to have to be a very conscientious thing in my current situation.

Oh and a tag on question how do you address someone that you are upset with if you don't know them that well?

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Big Girl Pants

So God has been teaching me something lately. I'm not always right, I know I know big surprise. I'm aware I'm not always right but I have a problem admitting it sometimes and it leads to being quite rude. Especially when it is with someone I feel the need to impress, for example:

A few weeks ago, I started making a quilt. The plan was to have someone help me since it was my first one but I decided to start on my own. After all how complicated could it be? Well I was wrong. I didn't know how to cut correctly or that you should iron and square up the fabric first. When my helper noticed she tried to explain it to me and I got defensive. I don't remember where I went but when I came back I had an attitude check. I went back to her apologized and she taught me the right way. Luckily for me most of the blocks I already cut were salvageable!

Then again this morning. I woke up 11 min before my shift was supposed to start. I flew out of bed let the dog out got ready in minutes, let the dog back in and put him in his kennel with his food. I didn't have time to explain to my roommate that I was going to come back over lunch to let him out. So she called my brother to ask him to come over if he had time. When she texted me that my first reaction was anger, how dare she insinuate I can't take care of my dog....then I took a breath and realized two things. 1. I didn't tell her I was coming back 2. She did it because she cared about Dutch!

I'm so glad that God is teaching me this lesson, I need some patience and I need to learn to take a breath before I react because SOMETIMES my reaction is wrong. I pray that I will keep working on this I hope this becomes my habit instead of just reacting.

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

God wants me to learn something.

So yesterday started out kinda bad I had a e-mail the bummed me out the instant I woke up, dumb modern technology. Once I got to work and everything settled down I got a call that was a phone Bible Study and the topic was all about being careful what you say. In everyday life conversation, e-mails, work, every where.

Matthew 12:34 (English Standard Version)
A) You brood of vipers! How can you speak good,(B) when you are evil?(C) For out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks.

So I think God was trying to get me to pay attention. I'm trying to find a balance in my life between speaking my mind and not holding things in and being down right rude. I think I've teetered toward the edge of rude recently so this was a good reminder for me. Not only to watch what I say but also to be careful what I'm absorbing, from the world around me.

And to prove it again this link was on my friends blog: