Excited and yet the same...

So I'm really excited about the wedding coming up don't take the title of this wrong. However I'm still working and that is what makes everything feel the same. Plus I've honestly done about everything I can do before the wedding so I just have to sit and wait for the day to get closer before I can do anything. Those to things together make it hard to realized its really happening this week! Tomorrow is my last day of working and I'm going to a concert with a friend so I think that will help. Then Starting on Thursday I have a whole list of cleaning and prep to do so that should help the "is this really happening" feeling subside.

So why prey-tell am I soo stressed out? Do you ever think we girls just stress out because we think we should be? I'm beginning to think so. I wanted to go on a date last night with Ryan since the rest of this week is going to be pretty hectic and I don't know how much quality time I'll have with him, but I felt like I couldn't there just had to be something I NEEDED to do. I thought through my list and realized there were a few things I needed his help for so we got those done and then went on a date. IT was great! Uggh so there we are back at the major point of a recent post, choosing your attitude. Well I guess Its true....

Knowlage into practice.

So Ryan and I are going through pre-marital counseling and it has been great! Part of what we are doing is reading through a book called "Saving Your Marriage Before It Starts: Seven Questions to Ask Before and After You Marry" By Les and Leslie Parrott. One of the chapters was talking about blame and how not only can we not blame our parents for everything that is wrong with us, we also have to take responsibility for our emotions. I admit this has been a struggle for me in two very different ways.

First of all when I was younger I couldn't control them very well at all, I was all over the place. Up and down happy then sad you never knew what was going to set me off. Then I became too controlling (except a few choice times.) I was pretty flat and honestly as time went on I stopped enjoying parts of life that take emotion to truly appreciate. So where does that leave me now? CONFUSED. Very confused.

I've had a lot going on lately good and bad and my brain can't seem to figure out how to handle it, some days I'm over the top other days in perfect control where is the balance? I need to take control of my emotions again not in the overbearing no emotion way but in the I'm allowed to react to things but life isn't going to end.

This applies to everyone here, when some one is mean, rude, spiteful or just plane inconsiderate we do have the ability to choose how we react. I'm not saying we don't have the right to be offended or to react at all I'm saying we don't have to let these things ruin our whole day necessarily. Face it some things are going to ruin a day (death for example) but other things don't have to. Maybe your spouse is tired and says something without thinking, you do have the right to be upset but don't let it ruin your day. This is an active choice and not an easy one. It's something I've been working on and seen some success. I hope to see more soon after some of the good stresses are done (wedding.)

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De-masculating Men

Why is it that its ok to make fun and yell at Men on TV but not Women? I don't think it should be ok for either. I don't really know what is going on with the whole "Jon and Kate plus 8" think I've only seen 1 or 2 episodes and honestly can't remember much about them to be honest. However with everything in the media you can't ignore the situation. From what I've heard (who knows whats true its 'reality TV') Kate is constantly yelling on the show. What if that was reversed what if Jon was the one yelling? Would anyone watch it? Would it have been canceled? Why do we as a culture think its ok to de-masculate men in this way? Commercials are another big offender in this area. Our young people need men to look up to and respect. They shouldn't be taught that its ok to treat them this way... Biblicly Men are to be the head of the household. How can this happen when all we do is put them down?

So what do we do? I don't know, But now that I have cable I know I won't be watching that show, reruns or not.

Not so little Brother

So my "little" brother is getting married on Saturday and I must admit I'm not quite sure what to do with this fact. I'm excited for him, you can see how excited he is. But he is my brother and I'm not sure I want to share. I like hanging out just him and me. We have always been great friends. In fact just the other day he called and asked me for advice before buying something. However I understand that all good things come to an end. But in fact this is just the beginning of a new life for him and a new sister for me.

There are so many changes going on in my life right now (most of them good) I was having a hard time dealing with all of them for a while. I seem to be doing quite a bit better now though. I've been, moving, unpacking, painting, hanging out with friends that I haven't seen in a while, planning a wedding, going to weddings and so on... Yikes. There is also a lot going on around me. I would like to ask for prayer for some of my friends in this regard. I would like you to pray for Natalie A. She had brain surgery 5 weeks ago to remove a non-Cancerous tumor that was causing problems and has been in the hospital ever since with complications. They recently put in a shunt to try to help with the extra fluid build up in her skull. I would also like to have you pray for a friend who has some family stuff going on that I can't disclose just pray for protection and wisdom.

All in all life is going great and honestly getting better by the second. There were a few bumps along the way but life is good. I'm back to cooking, and making heather and yes greener decisions again (although I must admit not for the wedding we have a tight budget.) So you should be seeing more and more insightful posts in the near future.

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